Dreary Days, Pity Potty, Hospital Bed

Hello Family, Friends & Guest,

As you all know by now, I had back surgery on the 22nd of August.  On the 25 I felt the best I had felt in a long, long time and it has been downhill ever since.  On Friday before Labor Day, I was sure I was done with the Hospital bed so I had Med Equip come and pick it up.  As it turned out I was a little Hasty in that decision and had them bring it back the Tuesday after Labor Day.

If I do nothing but lay in this hospital bed, I am convinced I am not sick.  Nothing hurts, but the minute I get up I know I am sick and always will be.  I am trying to be Grateful, but some days it is terribly difficult.  Some days it can be terribly difficult for many days.  I hate that feeling.

It has been cold and raining here for 3 days.  It is barely lighter than dusk all day long and the rain in cold.  High in the low 60's.  I have never done this before but I am seriously thinking of turning the furnace on and it's only the 8th of Sept.  I never turn it on till late October, but maybe.

OK the above was written early afternoon, It is now 8:00 pm and I am feeling very different.  I have had time to think about my visit with Rev Beth.  A couple of my Face book Friends have commented on comments I put there and Cousin Leah has been to visit. With all that I am out of my funk and I think I am in the process of turning the corner to acceptance.  I don't want to accept and I am going to call the doctor tomorrow and ask a few questions. That is 8 days out from surgery and too long to wait for the return visit on the 21st.   Just in case, they want to check now to see if I did something or if there is something I should be doing.  Maybe I should be trying to walk more, I don't know, but at least I can ask a few questions.

I worked a lot to get a music player to work.  The one I had I deleted cause I couldn't change the play list and the one playlist.com has now will not load in right for me.  I found this U Tube one and I got Art Garfield on it, but alas I cannot get it to load the song Grateful.  I can find it on the Internet and the lyrics too, but it will not load on this player.  I will just have to keep  working on it, but no more today.

I did bake a loaf of Blueberry Bread this morning.  Ray got out all the ingredients last night for me so it was just a matter of measuring out the ingredients and mixing it together.  It was made with Bisquick and Oatmeal.  It took Ray and I together to beat this quick bread 30 seconds, but we got her done.  It is tasty, but not sweet.  I think in a pinch, I would bake it again, but only in a pinch,

This is it for this time, I am emotionally worn out, besides that I am tired so.....

God be with you tell we meet again, Be Well

P.s. we turned the furnace on when Ray got home from work.  I had to get the dampness out of here.  Much better now.  :^)