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Good afternoon Friends, Family & Guest,
I look out my window and just in the last couple of days the trees have burst open and everything is green. Looks so beautiful!!! We have a pair of Red breasted Grosbeaks top Picture Males, Bottom Female. We have never has a pair here as I have never seen the female until yesterday. Now we have two pair and we are thrilled.
I have really felt quite well this week. Four days without a nap and only a couple of crying times. Anyone who knows me, knows I am a crybaby. I have cried at the least little thing my entire life. I do not nor did I ever cry for sympathy, I just can't help it. Since the Cancer Diagnosis I probably cried a couple times a week, usually brought on by thoughts of dying. I am not afraid to die, I just don't want to yet. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t9aLjTBY04E.
Since the Pulmonary Fibrosis Prognosis in January of three to four months, I thinks I cried a million times. The thoughts would just come unbidden and the tears would fall. Not tears for me, but How I projected my loss to affect my family. How sad they would be etc. After all at funerals we don't cry for the deceased we cry for our loss. I do cry too for what I know I will miss. One never knows cause ultimately God is in charge of our ship, but I really doubt I will see Jillian enter Kindergarten. As I said the other day, I do know I am not going to die by the end of my prognosis date in 2 days. Maybe that is why I have barely cried this week at all. It could also be that my soul mate, friend and caregiver has been home so I am feeling safer. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rde1NhBNV1M
Whatever the reason, I have certainly cried less.
I work hard at living one day at a time, with plans and goals for tomorrow and beyond.
This I know for sure - Assume makes an Ass out of U and Me.
That's All Folks
Be Well
I have really felt quite well this week. Four days without a nap and only a couple of crying times. Anyone who knows me, knows I am a crybaby. I have cried at the least little thing my entire life. I do not nor did I ever cry for sympathy, I just can't help it. Since the Cancer Diagnosis I probably cried a couple times a week, usually brought on by thoughts of dying. I am not afraid to die, I just don't want to yet. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t9aLjTBY04E.
Since the Pulmonary Fibrosis Prognosis in January of three to four months, I thinks I cried a million times. The thoughts would just come unbidden and the tears would fall. Not tears for me, but How I projected my loss to affect my family. How sad they would be etc. After all at funerals we don't cry for the deceased we cry for our loss. I do cry too for what I know I will miss. One never knows cause ultimately God is in charge of our ship, but I really doubt I will see Jillian enter Kindergarten. As I said the other day, I do know I am not going to die by the end of my prognosis date in 2 days. Maybe that is why I have barely cried this week at all. It could also be that my soul mate, friend and caregiver has been home so I am feeling safer. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rde1NhBNV1M
Whatever the reason, I have certainly cried less.
I work hard at living one day at a time, with plans and goals for tomorrow and beyond.
This I know for sure - Assume makes an Ass out of U and Me.
That's All Folks
Be Well
